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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

My motto for this Deployment....

A little something that I read EVERYDAY! 






Knowing that people would EXPECT me to be weak,
helps me to stay strong. 
Proving to yourself, to God, and to your loved ones that your can stay positive in 
very negative situation is a very rewarding feeing.
Everyday brings its new challenges but I am learning to overcome and adapt!
I am halfway through this long year and I am impressed with how well the girls and I have managed to not only 'just get by'...but we have thrived!




Monday, June 20, 2011

Nothing BUTT the Best!

Working on Daddy's Father Day Present!


 And it's looking GOOOOD :)



All Done!







Watermelon Pops!

Sophia and I making Watermelon Pops! 
Quick, easy, and so YUMMY!
Cutting the watermelon into star shapes.


Ready to freeze!


DELICIOUS!!!!

              





Sunday, June 19, 2011

Daddy's Girl's!

It's no secret that I have ALWAYS been a daddy's girl. For as long as I can remember, he could fight off monsters, sing Elvis PERFECT, fix anything that was broken, make anybody laugh until their bellies hurt, and cook the best Kraft mac-n-cheese EVER! He is always full of words of wisdom and has an endless supply of jokes. Trust me, this guy has jokes! He is a gentle giant with a heart of gold. Recently my dad has confessed some of his biggest 'fears or regrets' if you will and I am here today to put those to rest FOREVER!
Dad, You have always been my best friend. Yea maybe you weren't the 'strict' parent or the disciplinary but that doesn't mean that I had any less respect for you. Every family has to have an equal balance and without you, it would have not been complete. You were the one to make us laugh when we were sad. You were our protecter and caregiver when mom became ill. You stepped up and took care of two small children while their mother was battling disease. Yea we ate out at Burger king everyday but thats what made you even cooler :) You stood by your wife's side and never backed down. You were her rock and that speaks volumes to me. As a wife and mother myself now, I look back and realize just how special you truly are. You didn't leave her or abandon us when times got hard. You battled the disease right along with her. You fought it and you won. 
So please don't ever think that you weren't the father you should have been.
Trust me when I say that you did your best and your best exceeded my expectations of a father.
 I always have and will forever be a daddy's girl. 

How do you...
ALWAYS get stupid songs stuck in my head?
ALWAYS get me to laugh even when I don't want to?
NOT know how to text or use a computer?
get my daughters to CLING to you like a magnet?
manage to never miss one of my dance recitals?
ALWAYS forget to take your glasses off in the sun and ALWAYS look like raccoon?
ALWAYS manage to cry while watching Disney movies?
ALWAYS leave the cereal bag open leaving it to get stale?
cook the BEST mac-n-cheese EVER?
know so much about the Lord?
manage to go on every time you lose a family member close to you?
NEVER leave a restaurant with a doggie bag?
make the funniest faces EVER?
sit in the garage FOREVER organizing your trophies? 
talk so damn loud ?
not know the words to ANY song?
know how to make ANYBODY laugh so hard they cry?
become so witty and think so fast?
move on after losing such an amazing mother?
stay married for 34 years?

I love you Dad!
My Dad!


Sophia and papa on the tractor


Papa and his girls!



So it isn't no surprise that my two little girls would be " Daddy's Girls"



 Sophia and Daddy


The night Lulu was born

It's love
this was how I found her on Father's Day!



Kisses for daddy!


Lucy's first day home!



I knew he was special and so easy to love, but WOW. These girl's think the world of their daddy.
How does he do it? I guess the question of the the day is " how do Dad's do it?"
I feel bad for their future husbands. They have some big shoes to fill.
Although he can't be here as much as we would like, he still is an AMAZING daddy. 
He has two of the hardest jobs there is. Being a Marine and being a daddy.
He is an extremely strong man to be able to watch his babies grow up through pictures and Skype.
How does one person become so selfless and so giving?
He is selflessly risking his life and giving up the ability to watch his kids grow up.
He is our hero and he will forever be.

Happy Father's Day to two of the most amazing men I have ever had the privilege to know! 

Cheer's to the greatest Dad's EVER!

Also, a special Happy Father's Day to my older brother Jason! Emily is one lucky little girl to have such an amazing daddy. With you guiding her in life, she will live and enjoy everything life has to offer and appreciate it! I respect you more then you know and I look up to you now just like I did when I was 'the annoying lil sis!"
I love you bro. Happy Father's Day!







Sunday, June 12, 2011

His Comfies :)

I miss him so bad I'm sleeping in his clothes!


Got herself some tubes :)


 Having a baby who is ALWAYS sick, is extremely exhausting!!! 
Since September, my sweet little Lucy has had TEN ear infections! 
No, your eyes are not playing tricks on you! I said TEN! 
For nine months, my baby has been living with a CONSTANT ear ache.
And for those who have never had ear pain, trust me when I say that IT SUCKS! 
I have been trying for months now to convince several different doctors that she needs tubes in her ears.
FINALLY the lord sent me Dr, Botros. 
He took one little look in her ears and said " how does a week from today sound?"  
And although it was what I wanted for her, I was a nervous wreck.
That whole week I could barely stand to look at her! 
 I felt so guilty. But I knew it was for the best. 
She did AH-MAZING and her recovery was better then expected!
She is like a new and improved Lucy!
I never realized how bad it really was. 
Her ear problems have prevented her from walking and talking on schedule.
She came to the point where even eating would hurt her!
Now she is walking with better balance and her appetite is back with a vengeance! 
And for those of you who know her, she can eat a linebacker under the table!
So anyways, the surgery is over thank God and the problem is solved. 
And although the surgery was quite traumatic for both of us, 
that wasn't even the most exciting part of this whole trip!!!
Warning: this story shows that I am not ALWAYS as smart as I appear haha :)
Since the surgery was about an hour and a half from our house, I decided to get a hotel for the night by the hospital. The surgery was scheduled for 8:30 am and we were to arrive at 6:30.
There was NO way I was getting both kids up at 4:00 am to drive there!
So hotel it was!
I recruited my AH-MAZING friend Ty to tag along and watch after Sophie the morning of the surgery! 
Side-note: I am SO BLESSED to have Ty in my life!
So I was in charge of finding a place for us to lay our heads.
I googled "hotels near Hadnot Hospital in Wilmington, NC"
Now in my defense, Google usually understands me! I am usually impressed by google's ability to untangle my random thoughts!
But, not today! 
I found a Super 8 that was supposedly 2.2 miles from the Hospital and was only $66 dollars!
The pictures looked very descent for the price and it was on a street that was familiar to me!
It was the street that all the good shopping is on :)
SOLD! 
When we arrived the next day, we passed the shopping centers and kept going and going and going.
And as we drove, the buildings got more broken down, more bars were on the windows,
the people had less teeth....for lack of better word, we were in the GHETTO! 
So we pull into the hotel and I go and check-in. 
And another side-note: GPS said that it was 8.9 miles from hospital!
I bet your wondering why we even continued with deal and to tell you the truth, I don't have an answer for that! 
I tend to over- react a lot so I just thought I would suck it up and I kept telling myself it was fine.
We got to the room and it was anything but welcoming! 
It smelt of mildew and mold and the doors didn't lock.
As we opened the curtains to check out our view of the dumpsters, there was a used condom 
on the windowsill. 
And yet, we stayed.
We did however decide to get out of there for a few hours and go out to eat.
We were dreading going back! 
Once again, we googled the hotel's reviews and it confirmed what we already knew. This place was a hell hole!
Several customers had been mugged in the parking lot and many had written that it was not kid friendly.
When we got back there was a gang of mexicans speaking only spanish and giving us extremely weird looks. Now let me paint this picture for you.
So there is me carrying little Lucy and holding Sophia's hand. Then we have 6 month pregnant Ty carrying Cohen. Can you say EASY TARGETS!?!?
As we walked to our room, we realized they were following us.
Come to find out, they own the hotel and they live there!
And how convenient that they placed us right across the hall from them! 
We shut our door that doesn't lock and realized that we have to leave NOW before it gets dark!
It immediately began a rat race and Ty and I were SHOVING things in bags! 
We came up with a quick exit strategy to keep the kids as safe as possible and we booked it out of there! 
I was shaking the whole time but my mama bear mode came in and I knew that for all of our safety, we had to go! 
So we drove to the hospital and then looked for a place closer. Directly across the street pushed to the back was like a hidden Gem! The Hampton Inn. Oh man was it gorgeous! 
It was honestly heaven sent! 
Ty went in and spilled our horror story to them and they gave us a pretty hefty discount on top of your military discount! 
Like I said, God's gift to us :)
This room was GORGEOUS and we were safe and happy! 
So I thought it was over and the worst was done. WRONG!
As I am waiting in the hospital room for Lucy to wake up, I was making small talk with the nurses. 
I began to tell them the events from the night before. One nurse said " Please don;t tell me you were on Market street?" And I replied " umm yea I was!"
And she follows that up with " please don't tell me you were at the Super 8!?" 
I said " umm yea guilty!"
She honestly screamed out loud and said " A prostitute was found murdered there last year and it has been under several investigations for prostitutes stings!!!" 
My heart sank to my toes.
That explains the used condoms on the windowsill.
I felt stupid. I felt dirty. I felt so awful for putting so many people I love in so much danger! 
I beat myself up all day about it but then I realized that everyone makes mistakes and you learn from them! I will NEVER make that mistake again! 
BUT, I did manage to leave my charger there the night before because we were packing so frantically! 
I had to go back the next morning to get it! 
NOT COOL after hearing all those awful stories!
But I survived and I learned a lot of valuable lessons. 
Never trust EVERYTHING you read on google and ALWAYS trust your gut 'mama bear' feeling.
If it don't feel right, it probably isn't! 

On the way to Wilmington.



Then night before at the mall.



the morning of surgery!
On the way to the hospital the morning of surgery!



Before surgery!


her bed.
Her doctor bear they gave her for being so brave!

playing with toys!
Exploring

Always sanitize your hands!
After surgery!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

R.I.P.

Death is never easy.
I know he is better off then all of us.
He is no longer suffering and in pain.
I truly believe that he is in a place of beauty.
A place that none of our simple minds can imagine.
A place where his hurt and pain is erased.
And although he can't physically be with his boys and watch them grow,
I KNOW that he is ALWAYS looking down.
He will continue to be so proud of his wife.
He will watch her in amazement and wonder like the rest of us " how does she do it?"
And I believe with all my heart that 
we will all be re-united again. 
God needed and angel and he chose you B.J.
We might not know why he chose you so soon,
but the point is that we BELIEVE that he indeed
chose you.



Brian and the loves of his life :)



While I was waiting for Adam to sign onto Skype, I received a phone call from my mother. She had informed me that my cousin had passed away after years of suffering. And although him and I weren't extremely close, he was still family. My heart was broken. And when things like this happen, I realize that my family is at home grieving together. And I am not. I'm not there where I should be. I am not there to remind his parents and wife that they fought the hardest battle right along with him. But instead I am here alone. And of course, Skype decided not to work. So the one person that I needed to talk to was unavailable. Tragedies like this remind me that my best friend, supporter, comforter and tear wiper, is gone. I tossed and turned all night. I was constantly checking my phone for an email. And finally at around 5 am, I received this and I was finally able to sleep......






Im speechless lindsey, I'm sorry for your loss :( I wish skype would
have worked last night...the internet came up for about 3 seconds tried
to get on to no avail. I am really sorry...What are your plans? Just let
me know and we will work something out. I love you, keep your head up
and just know I will be home in about ***** weeks to give you that much needed
love and support :) I miss you guys and keep up the good work. I love
you and again im sorry. Tell your parents that my heart is with them as
well. I love you :)



S/F

Sgt Adam J Kish

Monday, June 6, 2011

Got to me!





I found this online while I was fulfilling my addiction to stumbleupon.com. And it instantly stopped me in my tracks. Like full-force, punch me in the stomach, knock the wind out of me, bring a tear to my eye moment. I realized that if this was the only thing I could teach my girls in life, I would feel like I did my job as a mother and I did it damn good! Being happy is a choice. Of course there are things that may turn our smile upside down but knowing how to overcome it and get HAPPY, is what it's all about. Life is too short and you can't waste to much time being down. There is always a positive and you just have to find it and believe in it!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Sisterly love!

Extreme Makeover: Sophia addition.

One thing I cant deny: Sophia is a Diva!
Maybe she takes after her mom, maybe not :)
Anyways, she REALLY wanted a haircut. She sees
me cut peoples hair all the time and she wanted it
to be her turn! 
After evaluating her ends, I decided in was necessary! 
As you can see below, I didnt take much off! 
She has GORGEOUS curls and 
I wans't about to risk cutting them off forever! 
So two inches later, her hair was shaped up and fabulous! 



Before

During

During

After

Happy dance!

" So soft mom!"

Thumbs up mom! 

Lucy dancing

Movie Night!

A challenge for me during this deployment has been spending quality alone time with each of the girls. I think that is very important for both of them to bond with me apart from their sibling. Well of course when I am the only parent in the house and not a lot of trustworthy babysitters, thats hard to do. But thank you to the movie Gnomeo and Juliet, Sophia and I had a mother/ daughter movie night on the couch. Now of course the 'daddy doll' was with us but other then that, it was her and I. You would have thought I was taking her to Disney land because she was beyond excited!!! She made sure that we each had a snuggie and a pillow. She also pushed the envelope when it came to snacks. We had everything from fruit snacks, to cheese its, to a pint of cookie dough ice cream! She was also trilled knowing that she was up WAY past her bedtime! Throughout the whole movie she kept looking at me and saying " I love you mama!" She doesn't even know how much she melted my heart and I will never forget our special times together. I kept reminding myself to remember this moment and how blessed I am. I need to remember to take for each of my children even if it means breaking my own rules :)
Movie and popcorn


Sophia and her daddy doll

A tired mama and Sophia

Two thumbs up for the movie!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Road trip!

Went to wilmington again. Lucy was sent to see a ear, nose and throat specialist about an hour from our house. My friend Ty came along to help me with Sophia. Wilmington has all the good stores so we made the most of it. But I have to share the highlight of my day with you.
Mind you, she is pregnant. And yes, she is squeezing a ketchup
packet  into her mouth.



Breakfast at Dunkin Donuts on the way to Wilmington! 


















Watching you tube videos while waiting patiently for the Doctor!